Rose Tinted Glasses

It's Memorial Day today, county employees are off work today, so Mike and I have been hiding inside his house. We have been watching Jon & Kate Plus Eight marathon, since their 'face off' is tonight, after suspected infidelity, bad attitudes, relationship falling apart... pretty sad stuff! I can't say I didn't see it coming at some point, though. Hollywood kind of showed up at their door with fame and money and free stuff (trips, furniture, house, you get my drift), and Kate has been capitalizing on all their fame, milking it pretty much. Having Jon stay at home and not work to be with the kids while she is off on book tours and interviews and writing stupid books like 8 Smiley Faces (yeah, like you are the only person in the world who has had eight kids... please!) I personally feel bad for Jon- he seems to have no identity, he isn't allowed to be a man in his own home, and Kate is always so controlling, explosive, and just generally OCD. As I am watching it I am doing some serious self examination!! I certainly hope I don't treat Mike that way. I only want him to be happy, do what he wants, and help him reach his goals on his terms. I love him very much. Things have been extremely sweet and great between us lately- I have seen an effort and change come over Mike like never before- real resolution and sweetness. I have to admit that I am having a hard time accepting it and opening myself completely to the new Mike. In part I think it is because I've seen him this way before, heard what he has said when he was like this before, all the promises and sweetness and it didn't last. And I felt very disappointed and hurt when he changed his heart again. I do think this time is different and is here to stay, but still... I am a little nervous. But by the same token I am excited because I really think it's sincere and real this time.

I have been enjoying our new church we found, it's tough though. Mike can't make it usually because he works all day Sunday, and his boss won't allow him to go to church on the clock. Stupid. Since it is literally less than or right at about an hour long. We did take the Fireproof class- and I really liked it. I think the newly changed us should do it again, I think we would both be more open to it.

So all in all, things have been amazing. Life is good, summer is almost here :)

And Mike... if you're reading this- I love you :) and you should get the guitar and sing me another song!!